10 months already!?!

My baby is growing so fast...where did the time goooo? Corey is now eating solids and today he got pieces of chicken fed to him...wow! I'm excited to see him feeding himself finger foods...which will be next.



Right now we are preparing for Christmas...Corey's first one. I'm going to make it as special as possible for him. It will be my first too...my first time hosting my family christmas! 30+ people in my small house...hope I can do it! I want it to be special for Corey, not only him but all my little cousins...I want them to have a tradition to look foward to as I did growing up...hopefully I can make that happen.



What better way to get into the holiday spirit than to visit my brother in law and sister in law. My sister in law does Christmas like its her job! Her house is beautiful and very festive. The day we went, she baked brownies and sugar cookies that were amazing and had Corey eating them. My brother in law gave him a whole sugar cookie and he loved it...had Corey loving him afterwards, giving him big smiles and laid his head on his shoulder when finished...wish I had a picture of it but I have a small video of him admiring his aunt's christmas tree...

Please excuse the background conversation...it was Sunday...football.

Can you see how big Corey is getting, though. My sister in law can barely hold him up!! He is starting to learn how to stand while holding on to stuff and pulling himself up but hasn't got to that stage yet.

In other news....I'm back at work in the office, no longer working at home. My account closed and so I went to another account but this one does not offer the option of working at home so I'm back to the daily grind. I actually have to get up and pack my lunch...do my hair and makeup...start my car...leave my baby at home with babysitters. Yes...I have babysitters...a live in nanny...2! My brother came back home from Texas and brought his Fiancee and is staying with us until they can get on their feet here. I'm loving it...she cooks, he cleans, they both take care of Corey until Chris gets home from work. I missed my little brother...I'm happy he's here for the holidays.

Chris has been working lots of overtime at Cat. He is loving being the head of the house! He's a good daddy and plays with Corey from the time that he comes home from work to the time we go to sleep for the night! He's having fun this season, watching football with Corey and teaching and talking to his little boy about the games. Recently, Chris taught Corey how to high five, very cute!

It has been bitterly cold out this week and we have not taken Corey out at all. I'm hoping this weekend or sometime next week before Christmas, we can take a trip out to the Festival of Lights in East Peoria. I would love to see Corey's eyes when he sees all the lights! Lots of stuff to be excited about:)

9th month in November:)

I feel like I never really had a little baby...Corey was big when he was born and he's always been a big boy... Right now, it seems to me that Corey is a full blown toddler. He's always had a mind of his own and wants to be independent all the time. In the past month of November we've gone through milestones like they were nothing...

November 1st he started waving bye...he doesn't know the concept of it yet...that you leave and you wave, no he'll do it randomly and at the wierdest times. Maybe he's just waving 'hi!' to us.

We also got him started on 3rd stage foods. It requires lots of chunks and chewing so he's starting to eat table food like eggs, banana's and teething biscuits. Not that he hasn't eaten teething biscuits before but he actually chews them instead of sucking on them.

November 13, Chris lowered his crib because he's been sitting up and lifting himself up on things...that was a moment I knew I didn't have a little baby anymore...like I said, not that we ever did have a little baby but it really hit me then. I am very proud:)

Between the 13th and the 15th his upper left tooth broke thru and he now has 3 teeth! That is amazing!! I don't know the exact date of the tooth but it wasn't there before the 13th and it was there on the 15th and plus he didn't make a big deal out of it...it must not have been too bad. Corey is a tough guy!!

For the past month, I have been teaching him to point out the nose, eyes, ears, and mouth....He's got the nose down pat and when you ask him where his nose is, he'll point to yours, lol. He doesn't have the concept that he has a nose and where it is. He'll get it soon.

And the big announcement: In the past 24 hours Corey has crawled!! Wednesday the 18th, I was getting all my scrapbook stuff out, my brads and stamps and buttons and Corey was so curious that he started crawling, he took 3 big crawls and stopped, I screamed and everyone came running in but he didn't do it again probably because I scared him. Then today Thursday the 19th, he got tired and just started crawling... anywhere and everywhere, to the picture frames on the floor, to the PS3 remotes by the tv, to the dvd stacker, just everywhere. I got it all on video and I'm so happy I got it! Thats the one reason why we got the camcorder and I'd be really upset at myself if I didn't use it.

Its been a whirlwind of milestones and firsts so I told myself I'd better get to blogging before I forget the dates!

Next week will be his first Thanksgiving! I'm making sure that every year he knows that I'm thankful for him and his Daddy...Happy Thanksgiving, All!!

Wowza!

It has been 2 months since I last wrote. I can't believe how time is passing by so quickly, it just gets away from you. It is both sad and exciting. When I'm here counting down Corey's milestones and waiting for the next one to happen, I realize that I must be patient and let it happen on its own...who cares if he hasn't crawled yet, he'll get it soon and I will wish he'd be back to his little self playing around on his tummy and back. Its so exciting to see him learning and playing! He is at the stage now where he is trying to figure out how to sit himself up. My poor baby's abs are going to be hard as rock soon, he only goes halfway up then gives up, kind of like a sit up!

Corey now has 2 teeth! His first tooth he got on September 17th on the bottom middle and the 2nd he got on the 28th of September to the left of his first one. Its hard to get pictures of them because of the trauma to his face he had since birth. It has gotten much much better but when he smiles, his mouth is still slightly crooked so no toothy grin yet that you can see real well. I know he's proud of them either way! When he spent the night at my mom's house one day around the first week of October, she gave him a bit of pancakes...he looooves pancakes now! and then on October 6th, he started eating Cheerios and little Gerber cheese puffs! It is sooo cute how he eats them...its crazy how babies know what to do as far as gumming/chewing their food up before swallowing and I love how he says 'mmmm' with every bite! He's so smart!

He likes to play by himself on the floor with all his toys! He has a ton with what I buy him and what my friends send our way. Taking books from my sister in law's garage sale was the best thing I could have done for him. He gets so excited when I pickup a book because he knows I'll sit him on my lap and read to him. Then he'll steal it and 'eat' it...boys! Speaking of which, I love that I have a boy. He is so rough and tumble and he already likes wrestling on the floor. Well, we don't wrestle we roll and I have him pinning me but he laughs and laughs. Just the other day, we were at my aunt's house and her little 15 month old girl Mariana walks around and runs and stuff. Well, she ran right over Corey and it didn't phase him at all! It was great to see that he can handle his big cousin!

Mariana is his only friend for now. We haven't really found any one we can actually go and make playdates with. My friend Stephanie who lives in another state came home for a visit and we got the boys together in September, they are only 2 weeks or a week and a half apart. Corey had lots of fun and it was so cute how they (didn't) interacted. Corey was so excited at one point that he screamed really loud and he scared his little friend Dominic. It was too cute though. Anyways, there hasn't been really anymore friends...I guess that means I have to get out more!

Sleeping is pretty much the same. We have him in his crib which we will be lowering pretty soon so that way he doesn't fall out from him sitting up on his own. He'll get up occasionally at night because he's either hungry or cold and I am too lazy to rock him back to sleep in his room so I just put him back in bed with us. Chris hates it but I tell him if he doesn't like it he'll need to go in there and rock him then. I haven't seen that happen yet so...my way so far. He'll wake up in the morning and go back to sleep after his bath and lunch then will wake up and take an evening nap. and if we're lucky a 3rd nap in between. Pretty much this is all we do eat, sleep and play...no wonder I haven't written for 2 months...nothing to report I guess!

Can you believe Corey will be a year old in 4 months...okay, okay... no more looking ahead!!

Corey's 6 month shots.

Last Thursday, Corey received his 6 month shots. It was the first time mom did not come with us for a doctor's appointment and so it was kind of nerve racking but I got through it.

Corey got recircumcised, his foreskin grew back and he needed to get it pushed back. The doctor said it was going to hurt big time but it didn't phase him one bit. He's a strong little boy!

We then had to put him through getting his shots. I had to hold him down which really sucked and it was my first time doing it. Right before the nurse gave him the shots, I had remembered I needed to give him Tylenol for it to not hurt as much and to avoid fever. It didn't help much but I gave it to him before he got the shots. He screamed and cried. I was so sad for him. We got home and he slept the whole day. When he woke up, I had to go to work but I let Chris know he needed Tylenol, a whole dropper and a half. HE ONLY GAVE HIM A HALF A DROPPER. And by the time I knew about it, it was time for his next dose of medicine. But he was asleep so I waited a whole hour before giving it to him. I gave him that dose and we all went to sleep. By the time, we woke up, Corey had a fever. His first fever since he was born...I felt so guilty for not taking care of him well enough. He had a fever until Friday night.

Saturday, my mom took him so Chris and I could go out. She called me at one in the morning saying he had a fever of 100.3. I was sooo tired and I could have sworn she said 100 and 3! I was like 'Mom! We gotta take him to the hospital, his brain is frying!!' Mom was like, 'Listen carefully, he has a hundred POINT three temp, he's fine, I'm just calling to let you know.' I was very relieved. When I went to go get him that morning, he had no fever and he hasn't had a fever since.

So, I survived his first fever. It was scary but we got through it!

Happy

I am loving life. I have a lot to be grateful and thankful for.

Tomorrow (8/21/09) at 11pm will be the start of a 9 day vacation off work. Its going to be amazing, awesome, incredible and enjoyable. I'm so excited. I have everything to look forward to and nothing that needs to be done or anywhere I need to go. I know I have plans to see people and go to some places but most of the time I will be home playing with Corey and making dinner for Chris. I plan to take long walks with them and cleaning the house top to bottom also fixing the spare room. I plan to go see my grandma and play bingo with her and party with my friends over the weekends that I'm off. I plan to go shopping a lot, not that I'll buy anything just window shopping but who knows!? I also plan on doing a lot of scrapbooking but right now its feeling more like a chore so I'll get to that when I get to it.

I have gotten down to my weight from before I got pregnant! It took me all of 5 months...5 not 6 since I've been this size for a month now. I actually weigh less then before I was pregnant so thats good! Now I'm not sure if I'm under weight but I assure you, I eat! For example, today I ate a hot pocket, chips and a cookie for lunch and Mcdonalds for dinner...yuck but I'm on the go with Corey and work so I'm not really watching what I'm putting in my body so hopefully on vacation I can find some simple receipes to do when I'm working.

I'm seriously so happy that I hope its not too good to be true...so as usual I'm praying that everything stays good and I pray that my family and friends are safe, happy, and loved.

Good night:)

Corey is 6 months old

A half a year old...half a year and he'll be a year old. It has gone by so fast and its going even faster now that falls almost here. Fall is always so busy for us with football, pumpkin festival, spoon river drive, & holidays. It seems we have something going on every week! I can't really keep up with Corey's pictures and upload them to facebook and myspace because they require lots of descriptions and dates and why i took them so I haven't uploaded any. I have lots of milestones on camera and camcorder and I can't wait to make a mini movie of it...for his birthday, yes, I'm already planning it! I'm thinking of displaying tons of pictures on a poster and having the mini movie playing! I have a method to my madness is what I tell Chris everytime I ask him to start the camcorder up:)

So now that Corey is half a year, he's not just laying around looking cute anymore. Yea, he's still cute and he gets cuter everyday but he's got a big personality now. He likes his toys and he sits on the floor and plays with all of them like they are brand new! He sits up...he's been sitting up since he was 5 months old but now he is moving his body left and right trying to get toys.

He says words...but still not 'mama'. He is getting the 'mmm' sound though so probably very soon. Dada is his favorite word still. I think before when he first started saying it, it was just a word to him but now he can look at Chris and actually say 'dada' to him. Chris is now getting the VIP treatment from him. He only used to give it to me and my mom but now whenever he sees Chris, his whole face lights up and he'll get excited. With anyone else, he will cry and get mad if anyone but us is holding him...the only 2 people he's absolutely content with is me and mom. Don't ask why its mom, maybe we look alike or something.

Corey eats a lot! I'm still nursing but he'll have cereal and fruit for breakfast. Fruit and a veggie for lunch and a meat and fruit for dinner. He's heavy!! He loves his bananas and sweet peas but he hates broccoli and chicken and chicken noodle dinner, lol. He makes a gagging noise and face when I make him eat it. I'm not letting up though he'll have to get used to it. I refuse to have a picky eater!

Chris and I let him sleep with us occasionally but sometimes he really just likes his crib, probably because we don't crowd him when he's in there. He doesn't wake up when he's in his crib but when he's with us, he'll wake up 3 times a night either because he smells his milk or we are moving around trying to get comfy with him in the middle. I like that he can sleep without us but we sometimes like him to sleep with us when the weather's bad outside or when he's sick.

He likes going over and visiting people. He likes short drives and he likes taking bites from ice cream and cookies. He likes homemade tortillas and teething biscuits. He loves gerber juice but he refuses to drink it from a bottle so we have to give it to him in a cup...not a sippy cup, a juice cup! He's worn a size 6mos. since he was 3 months and now he's in size 9mos now that he is 6 months. I get him an outfit every week...poor 2nd child...will have all hand me downs! I'm hoping for a girl for my second one but I have a feeling its going to be a boy so I'm saving everything!

Corey is rough and tumble and I'm thinking he will stay like that, he's a boy...a very mischevious and curious little boy and I can't wait to keep watching him grow up!!

Love & Marriage....

I am in love with my husband all over again!

I have mad love for him and its all just starting to come back. No, seriously, Chris and I have been focused on Corey this past 5 months (not to mention the 9 months waiting for him to come out) that we have drifted apart.

One drunken night, it all came out and I told him there was no spark and that we aren't even intimate anymore. When you're drunk, the truth comes out whether you want it to or not. Chris said some choice words to me but I hurt his feelings really bad that night and ever since then we are making up for it to each other.

Another eye opener was when a friend was having a fight with her husband and I had asked if she was ok. Her response was "We're okay, we are just having one of your and Chris's fights." She was saying their fight was comparable to our fights. It kind of upset me that she would say that but I had it coming when we argue out in the open in front of people. All couples fight, but its the ones that are out in the open that really counts, not because you'll remember them but other people will remember them and so will you. I don't remember that we fight about who's doing what around the house but I do remember the fight we had when we were at his uncle's wedding in '07 and I drove off mad (I didn't leave him, he got in before I could drive off, door dinging his brother's car along the way)

So, with those events taking into play, I realized he's my husband and I wouldn't trade him for anything ...okay maaaaybeee Tom Brady. But until Tom comes along, I'm really appreciating Chris a lot more now for what he does. And man, does he do a lot. My husband cooks, cleans, does laundry, vacuums, takes care of the baby, takes out the trash, does grocery shopping, mows the lawn, etc. I have talked to him about this and he says he appreciates me, too, which makes me happy. I asked what he appreciates about me and he said the way I take care of Corey, the way I take care of myself. He loves my body which is crazy since I just had a baby. He loves that I'm independent, that I can go have my fun while he has his. He loves that I work and bring home a pay check. He says thats why he does all the stuff I mentioned above without complaint. He knows that one thing we compromised when having Corey was that I would go to second shifts but he also knew I would not be cooking and laundry when I had to work. He is a sweetheart and I am so lucky to have him. Its made me realize I can't let him go so he's stuck with me and vise versa.

So we are fighting less and wrestling more...if you know what I mean!!


OOOOHHHH! One other thing I keep forgetting to blog about

Corey has said his first word!! Dada...!

He started saying that on July 17th. I had a small ping of disappointment but I'll give Chris this one thing since Corey looks just like me. And of course because like I said above, Chris really deserves the honor for all that he does for us!

We love you 'dada'!

Seperation Anxiety & My Grandmother

It is happening...Corey won't let me put him down and when he is with people and I leave his sight, he bawls and bawls. I knew it would happen one day but I didn't know it was going to be this early on. The good news is that when we leave him somewhere with a grandparent or a babysitter, he doesn't seem to be phased. Its only when I put him in someone else's arms and right away he realizes those arms aren't his mommies. And I have become one lazy mommy putting everything aside from scrapbooking to cleaning to even shopping just because I don't want him crying in his swing in the living room or even stroller because I can't hold him or carry him around. So, I do nothing at all and Chris comes and the house is messy and the groceries aren't there. I need a maid or a nanny. No, I need some balls and just let him cry, right?!

He got this way because of me always having him in my arms. He is spoiled because I have spoiled him. So I shouldn't complain. I love the little guy! In all seriousness, Corey will be growing and crawling and walking soon so I should cherish the time where he wants to be in my arms!

Like I said, I'm getting to be pretty lazy at things and I know Chris is getting upset about it. He picks up the slack though and I really really appreciate it and love him for it. I'm hoping he knows how much I love him. I'll get there someday where I have the energy to feed, bathe, and play with Corey along with clean, cook, and run errands.

Last week was a really hard week to live through. My grandmother came to Illinois on the 16 of June and has been struggling to adjust. The last weekend in June, she had lots of stress build up on her weak body and was rushed to the hospital that Monday. Tuesday I was waiting to go see her while the doctors did a stress test on her. She was to be in there for 3 hours and barely and hour later the doctor called my cousin whom I was with at the time and told her to get back to the hospital asap. We were freaking out. The dr said her heart stopped beating for 15 seconds. We were in shock. The doc said he was going to put a temporary pace maker in her for that day and sched the next day for surgery for a permanent pacemaker. At that time, all my aunts and uncles rushed to her bedside along with most of my little cousins and my aunt and her family with my brother and his girlfriend who all live in Texas. I went in late to work that day, not wanting to leave but knew I had to. The next day my family from Texas came right before she went into surgery. It was terrible seeing her cry from being so scared and watching her be wheeled out. I freaking cried and cried. But it was kind of a distraction when I finally saw my little brother and him finally meeting Corey. It was so cute how he wanted to keep him all day. I decided it would be best to stay in Bloomington to see my grandma and spend time with my family in the light of her surgery so I called in and I am so happy I did. I was able to see my grandma come out of surgery and hang out with my brother and his girlfriend for a while.

Needless to say, when you have an elderly in the hospital there is going to be fighting among family and ours was the worst. Everyone fought and I just stayed back and stayed out of it. For the most part, I was just happy to see family and to see my grandma come out of it alive and well. She is truly the strongest out of anyone I know and I'm so happy to call her my grandma.

I have

Corey's 'guest book' is done. Here are some a couple of pages of it:

Why am I so stressed?

I am so stressed about something but don't know what it is...I've been fidgety and nervous since the start of the week. Last night, I couldn't go to sleep until 2 o'clock. Some reasons may be...

*Work...of course.

*I looked down at Corey today and realized how big he is. He's practically sitting up on his own and looks around like a big boy of a year old would. He's growing like a weed. He holds his bottle up on his own and takes his pacifier and will take it in and out of his mouth.

*My grandmother is coming to visit for the summer from Texas. She will be here on the 15th and it can not come soon enough. I'm so excited to see her...and have her meet Corey! I missed her so much it kinda hurts to think about.

*My mom went back to work after having 3 weeks off and seeing her everyday for that amount of time...I miss hanging out with her.

*I went to the dentist yesterday before work...no cavities but my wisdom teeth are coming in kinda funny. Kinda worried about that but even before my appointment, I was worried about actually going to the dentist and being late for work since it was hour before I had to start. It was all good, though.

*I've been stressed about family...I don't like it when people think of me in a bad light. People say I've changed, yes I've changed I agree but I know thats not all me and people should understand. I guess what needs to be done is to fix myself and that is exactly what I'm going to do. Not because I think I have to but because I want to. I want to be my old self and be lovable, huggable Rosanna. I don't want Corey growing up hearing how big of a bitch his mommy is!

As I'm writing this, all I want right now is ice cream...

I don't take stress very well. I never have. I talked to my mom about this at some point when I was pregnant. She recalls when I was a teen that I would just break down and shut myself in my room and cry and cry. Can't really do that nowadays...I guess I grew out of it. I do remember the day we were talking about it when I was pregnant, I did cry, she said it wasn't the pregnancy, it was me just being me. I think she's right because right now I want to cry. Just one more day of work and I have the weekend!

Zoo & Bridal Shower

We had a jam packed weekend. We took Corey to Glen Oak Zoo in Peoria for their grand opening of the new Africa part. I was so excited about it. When I was younger, I lived less than a mile from the zoo and the park and always walked there. For visitations, my dad always took us there. I don't remember my mom ever taking us but I do remember getting a picture taken sitting on the big lion outside of the building, I wish I had that picture but I'm sure my dad took it and he has it. When I was about 9 or 10, I remember walking to to the zoo with my little friends. I thought I was so grown up! My mom found out and she freaked out. I would have too now that I think about it. My little niece is about that age and I would be freaked if she ran around the middle of Peoria...scary!

ANYWAYS...so we went Saturday and got there right in time to see the cutting of the ribbon. I made Chris record it with the new camcorder...not sure why...but we have it. We got lots of footage of Corey looking at the animals, but we aren't sure if he was actually seeing them. I also took lots of pictures to scrapbook of Chris holding him up to see the lions and tigers and monkeys! Its going to be fun to scrapbook. I bought paper for this 2 months ago so I'm excited to get going on that layout. Unfortunately, it will have to be after I get done with his hospital pictures...FROM WHEN HE WAS BORN!!!

I also went to my friend, Courtney's bridal shower after the zoo. It was so nice to see her and her family as well as the other girls we hang out with, Carrie & LeeAnn. We try to see each other as much as possible. I had lots of fun playing the bridal games like Name the Spice and dressing up Leeann in toilet paper to see who can make the best bridal gown. Of course, the bride's team won but I think we did an awesome job! I took Corey and everyone was just gushing over him...he loved the attention and didn't cry once.

Sunday, we were at Wal-mart contemplating on what we should do with the anniversary money his parents gave us. It took us an hour to figure out we wanted to start painting rooms in our house and then we had to figure out which color we wanted our spare bedroom to be. I chose this cute purple. I'm excited to see it when its finished. I'm going to put up sayings in every room in the house with vinyl lettering. Corey's saying is "Set your goals high and don't stop until you get there!" He has a sports theme in his room so it goes with the theme. My room will be blue and I want our saying right above our bed and it will say, "Always kiss me goodnight" I'm not sure what the spare room's saying will have. I'm getting ideas online but I'm excited to use my new die cutting machine, the Silhouette, to cut out the lettering!

All in all, it was a great weekend. I want to say we are the perfect little family but I know thats not true and everyone has problems...neither one of us, Chris or I is perfect. I just know that we can overcome any obstacles that comes around. We love each other and our families and that will never change.

3 years on the 3rd!

I'm SCRAPBOOKING!! I'm getting things done and trying to put books together...I have 3 or 4 projects going so hopefully I can get them done by this weekend. On Sunday, I returned my Cricut since I only used it once and bidded on eBay for a Silhouette machine. I won, it wasn't too bad, $130, I can't wait to use it. I told Chris its for my anniversary which is tomorrow. I won't get it until Friday though. Too bad...I'll be scrapbooking a lot that day and Sunday. I'll be pretty busy Saturday so no time for scrapbooking then.

On Sunday, my mom took Corey for the night. She's been begging me to have him spend the night again. I'm getting more comfortable with it so I let her. She came around 1pm Sunday afternoon taking full advantage of it and took him early. Chris and I didn't know what to do with ourselves so we stayed around town eating at Pizza Hut and mowing the lawn together. We went for a long walk and looked at houses around town, picking out what we liked about this house and that, getting ideas. Morton has the best looking houses. We went to see Night at the Museum which was really cute, but definitely a kids movie. We got home and watched a movie and I drank two whole glasses of wine. It was amazing. Chris and I don't hug and cuddle anymore or as much now that Corey's here but we did Sunday and I have to admit, I miss it. In all seriousness, Chris used to be my baby and I would be so affectionate towards him he was sick of it. Now that we aren't as affectionate, I think he misses it too! I'm going to try to show him more attention, my anniversary gift to him. Which reminds me...he is going on a trip with his cousin to the Grand Canyon this summer, not sure if its this month or next but also on Sunday, we walked around Best Buy trying to waste time before the movie and just wondering what to do without the baby in tow. We went there to just look around and for some reason went straight to the camcorders...I guess because we own everything else electronic-wise. 2 of everything. Computers, cameras, iPods, Wii for me, PS3 for him, tvs. We looked at all of them and priced them. Then we went around the store just thinking about if we really wanted and needed it. We played Madden '09 on the stores XBox 360 while thinking. We decided to get it. We realized that we needed to start recording Corey's life and when Chris goes to the Grand Canyon, I'm going to want to see how it was, so we bought it. We took it home and got started by recording our house outside and telling Corey how we got the house and showing him how it is before any big transistions are done, i.e. roof. So that was my anniversary present to him:)

As for Corey, he's just amazing. He knows his mommy and that makes me so proud. When my moms around though, he only wants her, which is fine with me, sometimes I need a break. Its hard to say that out loud because I want to be super mom but I know that I can't. I'm glad I have my mom around for times like those. She's the only one I really trust with him.

Well, tomorrow is offically 3 years together. I'm so proud of us! Yay!

OH Scrap!

I scrapbook. I have been for almost 3 years since my honeymoon. My sister-in-law got me into it and I think that is the biggest reason why I started it was to have something in common with her. I believe its helped us get closer. But the reason I've stuck with it is because I truly love it. I love taking pictures, journaling on pages, the embellishments, the die cutting tools. Just everything. I especially love the colorful paper. It sounds really funny when I say I'm addicted to paper. If you go into my linen closet, its not full of linens and blankets. Its where I store all of my paper and I have tons. I know its not really 'green' to keep buying paper but I try to make up for it by recycling.

My husband hates it. I spend lots of money getting the right paper, embellishments, pictures, and albums. I once spent over $15 on one layout. I've spent hundreds of dollars on die cutting tools and dies. I have Quickutz and the Cricut. Each one comes out with new fonts and shapes to add to your collection. Just Monday, I ordered a new font for my Quickutz for $20, not bad. But in months to come I'll be getting 3 new fonts which would equal out to be around $200!!! I'm addicted. I feel guilty about buying them because....

....I HAVE NO MOTIVATION TO SCRAPBOOK!!!!

Why am I still buying stuff for scrapbooking when I'm not even using the stuff that I have?!? Its so annoying when they come out with new stuff and everything looks so cute! Its like, I need this, I need that, one of those please, one of that! And it so doesn't help that the websites like scrapyland keeps coming up with sales. Agggghhh! I can't keep up! Love it, love it, need it, want it...hate it!

The worst feeling though that I have about this is that I have the best motivation for scrapbooking...MY SON! I should want to be scrapbooking every little thing but I'm not. Why? Because I can't put my baby down. I have enough time before work to do it, heck, I can do it during work. But all I want to do in before work is play with Corey and rest up for the long day ahead and when I'm working, I sit down and get ready to start but then I have scrapbook block, kinda like writer's block, I can never get any ideas out. I have mush for brains:(

Agh! Hopefully, that new font I ordered will give me the motivation I need to start getting my passion for scrapbooking back....or not. I'm so behind...oh scrap:(

Surgery Pics

I thought I would add pictures from before Corey's surgery, I thought he was too precious in his hospital gown. It broke my heart to see him go off to surgery, I'm so glad he didn't need anything more than for the doctor to look in his throat and nose and he has recovered fully!!

Celebrating lots of firsts this weekend!

Now that Corey is 14 weeks old (3 & 1/2 months), we have seen big changes and we are celebrating lots of firsts.

He is starting to grab things now, he grabbed a toy hanging from his carseat handle bar on Thursday going to my moms house. I heard a chrinkle sound coming from the back and it could only be made by squeezing the toy, yay!! We have a mirror attached to the back seat so we can see him in the rearview mirror while driving, when I looked back he was playing with his little bear, it was exciting to watch him.

On Friday, I took my mom to a doctor appointment and when we got back, we fed him rice cereal for the first time! I know his pediatrician said to wait after his 4 month check up but I think he's ready so we tried it. Adding 1 oz. of breast milk to about a teaspoon of rice cereal. It was really runny, not thick at all. Poor Corey kept getting mad at us for taking out the spoon so many times...he thought the spoon was something he should suck on. But he did love the rice so yesterday (Sat.) I made it thicker, he didn't care for it too much and only ate half of it. Today I didn't try it because I worked all day...we'll try again tomorrow at mom's house.

Tonight will be Corey's very first time he is sleeping in his own room in his crib! I'm so excited and happy for this milestone. What a big boy, I know he will do good. It took me a week to get myself pumped up for it. I knew I wanted to wait until after his surgery but his surgery was a week ago. I needed one last night with him in bed with us cuddling. And last night we did just that. I held onto him knowing it was the last time. I have to do this now or he will just want to stay in our room for forever.

Wow, lots of firsts! I hope we aren't overstimulating him but I think babies get smarter that way. Just keep them going and play, interact, and love babies as much as possible and they will be happy.

Tomorrow, we are going to a cookout at my moms. I'm a cohost and we invited all of the Garcia side. Hope everyone gets to come out for Memorial Day, we don't get to see each other all that much. Everyone has their own little families and work and school so it will be fun to relax and enjoy family. I'm also hoping it doesn't rain, we got Corey cute plaid shorts for tomorrow and I'm wearing a white dress. And I'm making JELLO SHOTS!!!

Surgeryx2

Corey had his surgery today, it went quite well. We had gotten up early and took him into surgery holding, he was so hungry. I couldn't hold him because he smelled me and wanted to eat. I had Chris hold him until he went to sleep, then I took him back and I didn't let him go until the nurse took him back for the surgery. We talked to the nurse, doctor, and anesthesiologist before the surgery assuring us that it was going to be really quick. They said it was only going to be 45 minutes at the most if he needed the nasal passage dilated and tubes in his ears.

We got down to surgery waiting room where they had monitors like you see at airports where you have patient numbers up on the board and it tells you when they started the procedure and end and when they go into recovery. My in laws were there with us and we talked about other things to get my mind off of everything. I never stopped looking at that monitor though and before I knew it, he was in recovery. It only lasted 20 minutes! I knew right then that he didn't need tubes. The doctor came down and talked to us. He confirmed that he does have lyrango/malacia. He didn't have to do the tubes and he also didn't have to dilate the nasal passage which is amazing.

As soon as the doctor was done talking to us, the staff let us know he was awake and that I could go up. It was good to see him but as soon as I saw him, I knew he was in pain and he was crying with great big sobs and tears. I couldn't get him to stop crying and he didn't want to take any sugar water or even nurse. I broke down and started bawling. It was so unnecessary to put him under for no reason but my own piece of mind. I felt so selfish and guilty. The nurse let Chris and his parents come up and see Corey but by the time they came up, he went to sleep fustrated that he couldn't eat because his throat hurt so much. His cries were so hoarse and mucussy. He was a trooper, though. I tried again to nurse him but he wouldn't take it so I warmed up a bottle I brought along with me and handed it and Corey over to Chris. He was still in pain but he worked through it and started downing the bottle. Thank God I brought it. I almost didn't because I just thought I'd be able to nurse.

Once we got him to eat, he was discharged and we went to go visit my mother....

There is no mention of my mother at his surgery for a big reason. She took the day off to be with him and us. And she really wanted to be there.

On Saturday, she started havin pains in her abdomin and she thought they'd go away with time so she ignored it and went on her way. Sunday, she picked up Corey and I and took us and Austin to the mall to get pictures taken for his 3 month milestone and get Austin a haircut. She picked up Corey and could barely keep her grip on him, he was too heavy for her. She was in so much pain and she thought she was having an appendicitis attack. I told her to get to the ER asap but she didn't think it was too bad and said she would go to the doctor after Corey's surgery the next day.

7:30pm comes around and I get a call from my step dad saying they were in the ER and to call my aunt to let her know what was going on. I asked if she was going to have surgery and they didn't know yet, they were waiting for the docs to determine that. I was getting Corey to eat really quick before I left to meet them but my mom called and told me to stay with him. I really wanted to be there with her but I knew she was right, Corey needed me. I called again every 30 minutes but still no difference. My step dad tells me he's taking Austin home to get some sleep and I leave to go to home and get him something to eat so I leave Corey with Chris and rush to the ER not wanting my mom to be by herself. She's sitting there trying to down a mediciny water that she has to take for a ct scan so they can see her insides better. My step dad gets there so I leave and the call me back at 12:30am letting me know that te ct scan came back fine. Nothing wrong with her ovaries, appendix, or gull bladder. So they weren't going to do any surgery and they were going to release her. Half an hour later, I get a call from my mother herself that they are doing surgery on her because she's still in pain everytime the dr puts pressure on her stomach, it still hurt her. I call my aunt and brother and let them know an hour after that we get a call again saying she got out of surgery and is doing better also they found the problem...a piece of fat coiled up in her bowels and was blocking it. I was relieved she was okay. Needless to say, I didn't get any sleep last night thinking about my mother and son and keeping everyone in the loop with info on mom.

I saw her after Corey's surgery and she seemed to be better. She is still in the hospital ready to be released. We will go visit her tomorrow since Corey is doing good.

Corey's eating like a champ and sleeping off the anesthesia.

Thank you, God, for taking care of Corey and Mom today.

I have a 3 month old !!!

I have been super busy and have not had time to do any updates for this blog for 10 days. Usually if we aren't busy at work, I can hurry and blog in between calls but its been super busy, I would blog before work but I like that time for just me and Corey, I like to give him my full attention so no myspace, facebook, or twitter. After work, I'm sooo tired, I just plop into bed and I'm asleep within 5 minutes if Corey isn't hungry. I like working at 2:30 but getting off at 11pm, way after my bedtime, is taking a toll on me. I'm hoping I can get used to the hours.

My title says it all! Corey is 3 months today. I can't believe he's that old already. I can't believe Chris and I have survived and we are striving as parents. Our little family is succeeding and I love that we are happy. I know anything could happen at any moment but its going pretty good so far.

Corey loves sucking on his fists and tries to find his thumb and fingers to put in his mouth. He likes to examine his hands and I'll open his fists up to put things in his hands but he doesn't know how to go for and grab objects yet, I'm working on that with him. He loves to talk a lot! He'll squeal and laugh and make gooo sounds. Its the coolest thing to have a baby-talk convo with him, he likes the interaction and I feel like he's getting smarter when I interact with him, hopefully that is true. He still does not like belly time but I found a way to put him on his belly to make it fun and so it doesn't hurt him too much. Also, he sleeps regularly through the night. So, we will be making the transistion to his crib soon.

I was looking at his closet/wardrobe last week and thinking, 'Where did all the pastels go?'. Wow, it used to be nothing but baby blues and whites now its dark red, dark blues, browns, blue jeans and bibs! He still has baby clothes, yes, but they are not newborn clothes anymore, thats crazy! Agh, I'm already saying 'Where has the time gone?' Thats not right, I should be enjoying the here and now...still, its hard to see that he is growing and not stopping for anything!

My mother is his favorite person...she is so good with him and he recognizes her just as he recognizes me and Chris. I picked her up one day to go to my Aunt's house to visit her and my cousins. She rode in the back with him. As soon as she got in the car, he smiled so big and all of a sudden he just started crying and crying. My aunt lives about a half an hour away and he cried all that time until my mom grabbed him when we got there. All he wanted was her to pick him up. Now the next day I was in the back while Chris was driving and he didn't cry once! He did it again the Friday before Mother's Day. We picked her up for lunch from work and went out to eat, he woke up right when we loaded him back into the carseat, he saw her and smiled and tears started rolling down his face, I couldn't see him but she said he had tears but I couldn't hear him crying. I knew that he was whimpering but it was a sad small whimper. He was really sad she couldn't pick him up again and when we got out of the car he stopped. We went inside her office to show him off and he wouldn't let anyone hold him but my mother, not even me! So he truly is a grandma's boy! I love that they have a great relationship like that.

My first Mother's Day was great! I celebrated the whole weekend and took my mom out to lunch on Friday. On Saturday, we went to get manicures & pedicures and did lunch again. It was a good girls day out for us but we missed Pooder. The next day Chris and Corey woke me up and wished me a Happy Mother's Day. Chris got up and went out and picked me up McDonald's and gave it to me for 'breakfast in bed'. He gave me my present which was a Wii Fit that I've been wanting, I've been using it and I have goal set, hopefully I keep using it and actually lose weight off of it. I need to lose 8 more pounds to get to my prepregnacy weight, the Wii Fit said if I lose anymore weight than that then I am underweight. Its not so much the weight, its toning I need to do.

Anyways, Corey and I went to my mom's house and gave her the presents we picked up for her which were flowers and a new Coach bag. I'm obsessed with coach so I thought it was time for her to start using a real bag instead of a wal-mart brand. I'm usually not stuck up when it comes to that but when it comes to bags, I have to have a Coach. I even made Chris buy me a Coach diaper bag before Corey came. I think its a good investment because wants he's done needing a diaper bag which will be a long time, I can use it with another kid and then eventually use it as an overnight bag for myself. So far, its been good to me.

My mom loved her bag and she started using it immediately:)

Today, Corey woke up at 6:30 and I was super tired after a long night working. So, I fed him and changed his diaper and layed down with him and listened to him talking and talking. I fell asleep listening to him and woke up at 8:30 and he was actually sleeping! He talked himself to sleep, it was the cutest thing. He stayed asleep until 9am which is amazing...he's such a good kid.

We went to a diagnostics doctor to screen his ears yesterday to see if he needed tubes in his ears. She was very optomistic that both ears are workin normally and that he doesn't need them but she had to send the tests to Corey's Ear, Nose, & Throat doctor so he'll determine that.

In March, we went to his pediatrician wondering why his breathing was irregular. Everytime he ate, he would have lots of weezing and it seemed like he couldn't catch his breath. I thought it was normal but my mom came over one day and heard him she immediately had me call his doctor which then had me set up an appointment for Corey to come in. Chris didn't think it was necessary but when it comes to Corey's health, I listen to my mom more. Remember, in one of my blogs I said my mom makes me call the doctor for even a sore throat? Well, we thought it was going to be one of those things but the doctor actually looked concerned and he refered us to an ENT dr. (ear, nose, throat) Well, the doctor heard him breathing and I told him somethimes he even forgets to breathe and actually will stop. Well the ENT dr recommended surgery. He thinks Corey has Laryngo/Malacia which is a medical term for a small nasal passage. Air isn't getting to his nose like it normally should. Its common in babies but it usually goes away or they grow out of it. Well, he recommends surgery to see if in fact he does need a bigger nasal passage. If he doesn't no harm done and he'll just be out for a few minutes but if he does the dr will dilate the passage way and make it bigger with steroids. He had also found fluid in his ears and he recommended a test (the test we did yesterday) the week before the surgery to see if the fluid was still there. If there were, he'd put tubes in them the same time he goes in for his nasal surgery. Well, since the test came back normal for both ears yesterday, hopefully he'll need just that one procedure! I was skipping out of the hospital yesterday, showing Corey shiny balloons in the halls and singing loudly to him on the way to the car.

Keep your fingers crossed that he doesn't need anymore surgery than needed. His surgery is on Monday the 18th. Can't believe its here already, we've been stressed about it for awhile now...

Right now I'm up stairs and I can hear Chris and Corey downstairs. It is so amazing how he laughs and talks and its great to hear them interracting. It makes me want to go down and hang out with them. 2 more hours left;0)

loving life...

We had a great weekend. It started out Friday night when I got my new schedule for this week. Monday & Wednesday thru Friday 3pm-11pm and Tuesday will be a 10 hour day. I'm excited that I get to start at 3pm, I'll have more time with my baby Corey!

I woke up really early at 5:30am on Saturday and did some scrapbooking. I got a good start on a book I'm doing for Corey. When I was in the hospital I made everyone who visited write a message to Corey on a 3x5 index card. I got pretty much everyone and whoever wrote a message to him, I got their picture holding Corey. I don't know where I got the idea from but its going to be amazing, if I have anymore kids, I hope to do the same for them.

I went to aunt's house to see her and my cousins. My mom came with us. It was a relaxing Saturday afternoon. My cousin who is 10 months old is crawling and talking, she is so adorable. Heres a picture...

She's going to be a handful when she grows up, you can just tell! She's my beautiful baby cousin, I can't wait to watch her grow up with Corey and their other little cousins. My mom gave Corey a bath while we were there and fed Corey some of Mariana's baby food. We didn't give him too much but here is a picture...
He ate just a little taste of it...oh man, I can't wait to feed him when he gets old enough:)

When we got home, Chris suprised me with a new Wii. I'm so excited to use it, there are a lot of fitness games I've been wanting to try! Also, I had some dresses I saved online at forever21.com which is my favorite store but we don't have one around here. Chris bought them for me, I can't wait to get them in the mail. Hopefully they fit!

Today, we woke up super early and got cleaned up for the day, we were out of the door by 11am to go to the mall. We spoiled ourselves and got lots of clothes from American Eagle, Hollister, Aeropostale, and of course Children's Place. We got Corey some bibs from there and some more cargo pants. I got new flipflops, jeans, sunglasses and a new sd card for my camera. 4GBs and it holds 1,000 pictures! I'm excited! Chris got shirts and some jeans. We went to Wal-mart as well. When we got home we took Corey for a walk around town and to Dairy Queen down the road.

It was a great day. I can't wait until next weekend. My mom and I have an appointment to get a spa manicure/pedicure and I have a graduation party to go to Saturday night. My friend Carrie is Graduating from Eureka College! I'm so proud of her. Also it is Mother's Day...my first year celebrating it as a mom...super excited! And I will leave you with a picture of me and Corey chilling after a good day last week...

Woo Hoo!

So, I thought Chris was the only one of us who had all the luck. I guess I have a little too! My meeting at work went really well. I talked a lot and asked a lot of questions during the meeting which I don't ever do. People looked at me pretty strange though since they've never seen me work there but knew everything about the account. I told them I was a home rep. They didn't really care about me after that, ha ha!

So afterward, I asked my team leader about the scheduling issue that I was concerned about last week. He didn't quite know my situation of wanting to keep weekends work-free. I asked if there was anyway of me staying Monday-Friday. He said well, if you take 2:30-11pm then I'll get you weekends, I'm like hell yea. Whats an hour more? And I get more time with Pooder in the afternoons and maybe I won't need to pickup my mother in law since it would only be 45 minutes between the time I start work and Chris comes home from work. I think she really likes it though so maybe we'll keep doing it for her sake.

I don't know, I'm just in a really good mood about it. It seems like its too good to be true so we'll see. And I don't know when I'll start going from 2:30-11pm but hopefully soon, I can't wait to have a longer afternoon with my son!

uh oh!

So I woke up today craving eggs, I made myself two eggs and toast. Then I started craving something sweet so I made cupcakes this afternoon...I hope its not what I think it is but you never know. Maybe I'm scaring myself...even if I was the 'P' word, I wouldn't have cravings this early in the game, right??

Corey slept through the night again in his bassinet! He woke up at 7:30am and went back down for a nap at 9:30am and stayed asleep until 1pm! I had no idea 10 week old babies slept that much! Maybe he's got his mommy's traits and just loves sleeping. I could stay in bed alllll day long. It was so cute how he would stay asleep while I changed his diapers and when he stirred, I put him to breast (nursed him) and he ate all the while sleeping...yes he is my son!

A roofer came to give us an estimate on our roof on how much it would be to get it replaced. $6,500! We have the money but we also have been wanting to keep saving that money up. Oh well, we gotta do what we gotta do. When we bought this house, we knew what we were getting ourselves into and we knew that we would need the roof fixed within the 1st year. We just loved the house too much for that to be a deal breaker and we never thought of asking the sellers to knock off some more for the roof since they were already agreeing on paying the closing costs for us. Either way, we are excited about the new roof, its a good investment and it will give the house more value. I love our house but I can't wait to get new paint, carpeting, cabinets in the kitchen, curtains, decorating...when that happens, it will finally feel like my home:)

I go into work tomorrow, I'm not looking forward to it...we'll see how it goes.

Gotta love weekends

We have had such a good weekend! Even though I worked on Friday night, I made the most of the afternoon shopping and running errands. I spent most of my shopping time looking for jean shorts for Corey and spent $50 on 5 pairs of jean shorts, 1 cotton pair, and a set of Cubs onsies for him! Since the weather was in the 80's that day, I thought it would stay that way and he'd need them...today: 60's and rainy:( oh well, I got 6-9 months on 4 out of 6 of his shorts so he will fit into them in June/July!

Saturday, I woke up bright and early singing the theme song to Mr. Rodger's Neighborhood to Corey, which made him laugh and smile then he went back to sleep. I, on the other hand, got up took a shower, cleaned the house and made 2 fruit pizzas. We had a cookout/NFL draft day party to go to and then at night I was going to my mom's to see my step-grandparents and show off the baby to them and my step dad's family. The pizzas turned out very good! They better had since Chris and I had to go to the store 3 separate times to get forgotten ingredients. Anyways, I like making fruit pizzas, I think its my favorite thing to eat and make.

We got to the draft day party all decked out in our 49ers gear and it was the first time we had Corey in Niner stuff so we were super excited and giddy to show everyone how cute he looked. (see picture above) It was such a relaxing day and I loved hanging out with friends and family. My mom called me 5,000 times though to figure out when I was coming over to see her husbands side of the family...I had to disapoint her and tell her we weren't leaving until we saw who the niners were going to pick up. We got Michael Crabtree, a wide receiver from Texas Tech. Not my favorite school since they are Texas' rivals, but oh well. I was wanting them to draft a quarterback namely Mark Sanchez...oh well, again.

We finally made it mom's house with Corey around 8:30 and we had dessert there. Corey was a hit with everyone. My grandparents loved him and would not let them go and they couldn't take enough pictures. My grandma gave me a really nice gift. I think they're called willows. A willow figurine. I'm sure everyones seen one they are carved wood with no faces. Very pretty and special.

I made my mom's day by letting her take the baby for the night even though Chris and I didn't have plans. I cried and cried. Everyone who was there laughed at me. It was embarrasing but we finally left and caught a late movie in Pekin. We watched Obsessed with Beyonce!! O man, it was good. Scary...man that girl was off her rocker obsessed. We then went out for a drink and it was nice just the two of us.

Even though I only had 4 hours of sleep I woke up at 6am and got ready to go get my son. When I got there, everyone was sleeping still. By everyone I mean my mom, step dad, brother, step grandparents, and step uncle. They had all stayed there that night. I woke them all up, even Corey! My mom said he hogged the bed trying to stay close to her all night and he only woke up once at 12am and once at 6am (when I got up, weird). Since I was there, I was talked into staying for breakfast. I love my grandmother's cooking so I stayed and it was good:) I stayed until 1pm and when I went home, I took the longest nap ever since Corey's been born. Most of the time, Corey was asleep with me, too. We woke up to take a walk with Chris to Jimmy Johns and then to Dairy Queen. We live down the road. We then went to wal-mart for some grocery shopping and I went back home to nap some more.

It was such an amazing weekend, I can't wait until the next, MAY!

oooo noo!

I think I created false hope for my mother this weekend. She was joking that she should have Corey spend the night. I said yea right but then I said hmm maybe not such a bad idea, Chris and I could go out and hang out with some friends. She sounded happy about the idea, but now that I think of it, I'm not sure if I'm ready to have a night without him. I called her up and told her this but she thinks hes ready. I know he's ready and he'll be a good boy for his grandma but the thought of him needing me, especially since I nurse, is making me not want to do it. What if he doesn't have enough to eat?? I have him on a strict breast milk-only diet so she wouldn't be able to give him formula or water, oh well I'll sleep on it for a couple of days...

Has it been a week already?

Oops! I really forgot to do updates for 7 straight days, it has been pretty busy. Corey has been sick with a cold for this past week and that was exhausting.

I've been back at work for 4 weeks now and just getting used to it but then my work decides to change my schedule up in May so I'm not guaranteed weekends or 1:30-10pm like I have now. I'm pretty upset about it but but I am trying to look at the bright sides of things like if I had Monday's off, I could go see my cousin on her 1 day off and if I got a 12pm start time, I could get off sooner to be with my boys??? O man who am I kidding...I want my schedule to stay the same:(((

Anyways, we had a good weekend, I saw my cousins on Saturday and hung out with Austin. We also got Corey's 2 month pictures a week late, the pictures weren't very cute so we picked out a silly pose with him sticking out his tongue! He is so cute in it and he looks really devious and we can tell by his expression he is going to be a handful!! I love it;)

Yesterday, I took him to get his first shots, I was so nervous about it. My mom knew how I wanted someone there so right before the nurse gave him his shots, she walked in and held him for me. He screamed his little head off but it was only for a couple of minutes then he was good, I took him home where I nursed him whenever he wanted to eat and gave him tylenol every 4 hours so he never had a fever, I was grateful. Next time, I'll be able to do it myself.

This weekend is going to be jam packed. NFL draft party at my in laws and dinner with my step family...Sunday night hoping to go see my aunt and her family, we'll see:)

I love life:)

Oh I have so much to be grateful for today.

*I'm happy for friends like T & E who check up on us to see how we are doing, I'm excited to see them this weekend.
*I'm happy and grateful for my mother in law who came today, she was so helpful and even did my dishes:) At one point when I was working, I thought I heard Corey crying so I ran to the hall and was about to go down the stairs when I heard not him crying but her singing to him and I went back to work:o)
* I'm so grateful that we have our health and that we have God to get our loved ones thru tough times with health issues. Our grandmas are not doing too good and I'm praying for them that they get better. I'm praying that they get to see our son grow up.
*I'm grateful for our jobs, that we still have them and I'm hoping I will have my job for a long time. I'm so happy i can stay at home and not send my baby off to daycare:)
*I'm happy and grateful for my loving marriage, after 8 years of knowing him nothing has changed except for the love I have for him grows more and more:)
*I'm grateful for my mother, she is so awesome. We talk so much throughout the day, I love it! Its so nice to come to a point in life where you're not fighting with your mother, she's actually a best friend!!
*I'm grateful that we waited to have a child because we wouldn't have this child. He is everything I wanted and imagined my baby would be:)
*I'm grateful for food, water, clothing, & shelter...of course.
*I'm grateful that I have a good supply of scrapbooking stuff so I can send cards to people...my brother in particular who's bday is Thursday and I have to make it and mail it by...tomorrow, lol.

If you are having a bad day, think of all that you can be grateful for, it will lift your spirits up immediately:)))

weekend and today's updates...

I've been so busy this weekend, I haven't had time for any updates...Friday night not much going on except I dropped my phone in soup and it got fried. Saturday did all the laundry which I'm very proud of since I haven't done it since I got pregnant...Chris wouldn't let me lift the baskets or bend to fold so he's been doing it ever since and he started to like it, lol! We went out to dinner with his parents who had his niece and nephew so we invited them to watch a movie at our place and while they were there we colored easter eggs for the next day, it was so cute...Corey couldn't care less though! Sunday we lounged around and I got him all dressed up for Easter but we didn't go to church like I wanted to.

We went to my moms house and had dinner there...so nice:) My aunt and her daughter came over to see the baby for the first time and she had told us that they had to put down their family dog the next day (today) and you could just tell how sad they were. My uncle and their son would've came she said but they were too torn up to see anyone. I was thinking about them all day, I hope they made it through the day...

Today was pretty tough for Corey and me. He was pretty sick with a runny nose, sneezing, and coughing...throwing up a lot as well. He barely ate anything today considering he couldn't breathe with a stuffy nose, so he would eat maybe 5 minutes at a time. I think hes getting better though even though he still only eats 15 minutes at a time. He has no temp so thats good. Both my sister in law and mom came over to check up on him (both nurses) and they both think its allergies/sinuses so we'll see...

Though it was tough, I couldn't imagine what my friend is going through right now with her baby who has been in the hospital since he was born and now needs a blood transfusion. I emailed her and let her know what a brave, strong person she was and how much I admired her. Its so sad but I'm praying for her as much as I can.

Tomorrow, I have my mother in law coming to help watch the baby during the lapse between me working and Chris getting home. Its about an hour and a half and since I've been working I've been trying to get him on a schedule for him to sleep that hour and a half but its not working so she's coming to help which i'm thankful for:)

a laugh and a half!

My brother and I had a good laugh today. His eye is pretty red which isn't so funny but my mom came by yesterday to check up on him and she saw it. She got really concerned so I took it upon myself to change the sheets and get him some visine. My mom texted me today to see if it had gotten any better. I said it still looks the same but there is no drainage and it doesn't hurt or itch. She says back, ok I will call the doctor and set up an appointment for next week. Omg mom wtf!! (thats what I texted back) I don't think she knows what it means but Austin calls her and hes like "No, you are not taking me to the doctors. I must have scratched it. Its no big deal." I was in the background laughing and laughing at their conversation. I was laughing because Chris tells me all the time that my mom goes overboard when we are sick. Before I was pregnant I would call mom up and tell her I had a cough or a sore throat and she would tell me to go to the doctor so I would go to the prompt care here in town. Then when I got pregnant she would tell me to call my obstetrician alllll the time. Then Corey comes along and I've called his doctor maybe 4 times with questions and concerns because my mom didn't know so she tells me to call. One of the calls I made to his doctor could've saved Corey's life(more on that later). Chris gets mad at me in a kind of joking way when I listen to her. But she's my mother who else is going to take care of me and be concerned for me...mommy!

It was just funny and what was even crazier was that the way Austin was talking to mom. He seemed so grown up! How did that happen? I remember his first words and now he's all grown upyelling and joking around with mom!! Soon it will be Corey's turn to yell and joke with me on the phone:)

a wonderful day:)

I give up on organizing my ipod its impossible to edit the names, albums, and cover art on each and every song...o well, its just as unorganized as our other ipod. The fun thing about setting up this ipod though was listening to old songs I have on my list like 'I'll be there for you' by Bon Jovi. Omigosh, I love that song and I haven't heard it in forever! And you can't go wrong with Spice Girls 'Say You'll Be There'! I'm so going to dance to that when I get off work, lol.

Corey slept through the night!! We put him to sleep at 10:30 and he didn't wake up until 6am!! And he stayed in his bassinet...next obstacle is having him sleep in his room in the crib alone, but that's more me taking that step than him. I'm sure he'll do okay with that transition but I don't want him too far away yet.

Also today I was working and Chris hadn't come home yet, Corey woke up so Austin, my brother, rocked him back to sleep. I'm so proud of my little brother! He is amazing with Corey and he's having a good time here.

Chris made a great dinner tonight...I hate that I can't cook supper since I'm working, I feel like a bad wife for not cooking or even packing his lunch at night. Maybe I'll do that tonight, he will like that:)

I love baby Corey

I'm missing my baby right now, I can't wait to hold him and rock him to sleep. Last night he slept in his bassinet the whole night only getting up once for a half an hour to eat. Usually what happens is he wakes up to eat 3 times around 1:30 3:30 and 5:30 then each time I try to put him back in the bassinet he will wake up and stay awake until I put him in our bed in between us but last night he let me put him down in the bassinet after the 1:30 feeding and he didn't wake up until 8am!!! Thats amazing! I hope it stays that way but I don't care either way. I think I would stay up all night with him if I had to. He's just an easy going baby and he doesn't demand stuff like other babies do. Sure he has his moments. To me though its so cute when he puckers up his lips to cry.

Agh! I'm a mother totally in love with her child:)

Working

I'm working right now almost done...less than 2 hours left. I have my husband, son, and 13 year old brother downstairs hanging out right now. My brother Austin is on spring break from school this week so I thought it would be good to spend some time with him:) Since we are so far apart in age we aren't very close but I try to change that as much as possible when I get the chance like this week. He's a good kid.

Yesterday Chris and I went shopping and I took back some jeans I bought right before I gave birth to Corey thinking I would fit into them within the first 2 weeks...yea right. Nobody told me that I would keep my weight on when I go in for a c-section longer than if I went naturally. It really sucks. One of my friends had twins in the beginning of October and by Halloween she was in her regular pre-baby jeans, I thought I was going to be the same way. When I took back my size 2 jeans I realized I have to lose 20 pounds to get back to my weight from before I got pregnant. I haven't even started exercising. It makes me sad.

Once it gets warmer out I'm going to start walking around and I bought a brand new pink ipod yesterday to motivate me! I'm so excited for it even though ipods are old news and I already have an older ipod. Chris takes the older ipod to work to listen to so I don't have anything at home when it comes to music. Yay, I'm excited to get my pink one going but its taking forever to organize the music on it the way I want to, lol. I want it perfect unlike the other ipod that is sooo unorganized.

Anyways one more hour until I'm done for the day...its going by fast:)

lived through it!

I have just a few minutes to write about last night before I go get laundry going.

Last night went well. As well as it could have gone...We got to my mom's house and I didn't want to leave. I was procrastinating & trying to make up stuff to do before we left for good. I made him a bottle and explained everything in the diaper bag twice. My mom was like 'This is not my first rodeo. Ha Ha mom. I carried him to the door where I started to tear up, man it was hard. So I got into the car and started bawling. Wow did I cry. Well when we got to TGI Friday's we sat down and the first thing I wanted to do was order a drink. I thought I would be tough and go for something strong so I ordered a long island iced tea....big mistake. I got 3 sips down and I got really emotional. I was telling Chris how much I love his parents (long story) and how much I love him and how much I miss Corey, he was like 'Don't drink the rest of that' This is coming from a man who looked at the price tag (6.99) and said you better drink all of that its the price of my whole meal! He could see I was drunk by just drinking half of the damn tea. H knew I was determined to finish it so he tricks me and says, let me try some and I go sure, (he never tries anything of mine so I was all for him trying) and he takes 3 big gulps and finishes it! I was so thankful. I must have been a light weight from not drinking for 11 months.

I called my mom between dinner and the movie and she said Corey cried and cried so she gave him the bottle but he didn't want it so she gave him his paci and he fell right to sleep, at that time I was weary about going to the movie, what if he doesn't eat at all while I'm away? We get to the movie parking lot and we see old friends, sat there and talked for a few minutes and they invite us to go downtown later that night since he could see that we didn't have the baby...it actually sounded like fun especially since I had just had that drink and was feeling good. Not tonight, lol. So we get inside and we pay as students, I'm glad we look young enough. They don't even ask, they just assume, so we don't say anything. I see my little cousin and she's towering over me and I can't talk because of the drink, lol. She must have thought I was off my rocker. I asked her how the family was and how her sister is. Her sister is 17 & pregnant. Nothing wrong with that I guess as long as she has support from her family.

I then sit through at 2 hour movie...I love you, Man. It was funny and Chris and I had a good time laughing at the way the main character said redouncuros instead of ridicules. But I kept looking at my phone for the time...it was eating at me.

We finally get back to my mom's and its 9:30, she lives out in the country. Mom said he was fine, he was sleeping when I got there. He only ate 6 oz. of breast milk that we had frozen. The reason why he didn't take the first bottle was because it was cold, he needs it really really warm for him to take it. Mom reassured me that he knew I wasn't there, that made me feel good and bad at the same time. I left him but he remembered his mommy.

Got home and went to sleep, woke up an hour ago and he wants to be fed and changed.

Cutest thing happened while I rocked him to sleep in his room. We have a sports theme in his room and it was the first time he really looked around his room. Omigosh! He loved it. He smiled up at all the basketballs, soccer balls, footballs, and baseballs. I could see in his face he wanted to play with them. Before I put him back to sleep I read from his baby bible that his aunt's mom got him. He liked the colorful pages and he liked to hear my squeeky voice talking about Noah and the Ark. I hummed him to sleep and off he went. What a good little boy...

Ready for the day...

I survived last night. Chris didn't take Corey anywhere which helped and work wasn't too busy. I changed his diaper on my side of the bed yesterday and he pooped all over it so we didn't get to bed until around 12o'clock last night waiting for the sheets to dry. Fun Fun;)

Chris says I've changed since the baby was born so I have been trying to get it together. I want to be that fun loving girl hes known before the baby so tonight I will be taking the baby to my moms and we'll go to a movie and dinner without Corey. I'm not looking foward to it but I think its good to get out and be with just my husband for the night, i think he deserves it and I do too for surviving my 1st week back at work.

I just got back from scrapbook shopping, I didn't get too much but it ended up being like $26 for everything. The scrapbook place I go to is really expensive, you buy a sheet of paper for $2, but they are so cute and rare. I'll scrapbook tomorrow...if I get myself to put the baby down for a bit, lol.

Happy Friday?

I'm so glad I have the next 2 days off after tonight...

Its been sad going back to work after 6 weeks off for maternity leave, I wish I could just be a stay at home mom but work at home mom is the next best thing! I'm so glad I can come downstairs on my breaks and feed Corey.

Ugh, 2nd shift, I thought I would absolutely hate it but its not so bad. I've been on 1st shift at my job for 5 years and when Chris and I decided to have a baby we realized we did not want to pay for daycare. Also I didn't want him exposed to all the germs that go around in daycares. So in order to have a baby we needed one person on 1st shift and one person on 2nd shift, I got the short end of the stick and went onto nights, there were reasons for it like Chris's job: people on 2nds do not usually get asked for overtime. Either way if i were to stay on 1st and Chris went to
2nd we wouldn't see him at night, at least we are all at home at night:)

Tonight is going to be hard though. Chris is planning on going to his parents house with Corey while I'm working to visit them and work on his '96 Camero before selling it also to have dinner with them. I've never been without Corey for more that 20 minutes, so I will be obsessing over if hes doing ok or eating ok. O man, having no control over what your baby's doing sucks. I just want to be with him 24/7. Is that normal? Is it healthy? Hes only 7 weeks old (today), is it time to cut the strings already? Then tomorrow Chris is wanting to take me to a movie and dinner, am I ready for a Corey-free date night? My mom is more than happy to watch him actually she may be the one pushing me out the door for alone-Corey time. I hope I'll have the strength to stay working tonight...

Right now Corey has a rash on his face...not sure how he got it, I changed his lotion to bedtime lotion but the rash is just on his face not his body. I wonder if he got it from his dad's unshaven, scruffy face rubbing up against him. Or maybe a heat rash...I'll keep an eye on it even though I want to rush to the dr's office to show them and ask what it really is.

Anyways, more later, I have to rush to Wal-Mart to get some diapers:)

why and why

I live to love and I love to laugh:) Haha, i have a bunch of those. Its my favorite saying live, laugh, love. I try to follow that as much as possible. Anyways, I just thought I would explain my page title a little.
Just a little background on why I started this page...I like writing and I blog sometimes on my myspace page but I like this idea better because the blog on myspace feels like its there when I really have something to say...I sometimes just want to write down how my day is going and what Corey did and I have nowhere to share it...this will be nice to do that on. Like i said, I have a myspace page, I also have a facebook page, and I'm on twitter (whatever the hell that is). It feels like its getting old and juvenille but I keep them going because I like keeping up with whats going on with family & friends...if it weren't for myspace I wouldn't have found my bff from 2nd grade or see my little cousins grow up with pictures that they post of themselves:) I like talking to my high school friends still and see how they are doing with their new little families so for now I'm not taking down any profiles that I have.
So this blog page is for me, to put my thoughts down and if anyone wants to read it thats fine...no pressure:)