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Corey's 'guest book' is done. Here are some a couple of pages of it:

Why am I so stressed?

I am so stressed about something but don't know what it is...I've been fidgety and nervous since the start of the week. Last night, I couldn't go to sleep until 2 o'clock. Some reasons may be...

*Work...of course.

*I looked down at Corey today and realized how big he is. He's practically sitting up on his own and looks around like a big boy of a year old would. He's growing like a weed. He holds his bottle up on his own and takes his pacifier and will take it in and out of his mouth.

*My grandmother is coming to visit for the summer from Texas. She will be here on the 15th and it can not come soon enough. I'm so excited to see her...and have her meet Corey! I missed her so much it kinda hurts to think about.

*My mom went back to work after having 3 weeks off and seeing her everyday for that amount of time...I miss hanging out with her.

*I went to the dentist yesterday before work...no cavities but my wisdom teeth are coming in kinda funny. Kinda worried about that but even before my appointment, I was worried about actually going to the dentist and being late for work since it was hour before I had to start. It was all good, though.

*I've been stressed about family...I don't like it when people think of me in a bad light. People say I've changed, yes I've changed I agree but I know thats not all me and people should understand. I guess what needs to be done is to fix myself and that is exactly what I'm going to do. Not because I think I have to but because I want to. I want to be my old self and be lovable, huggable Rosanna. I don't want Corey growing up hearing how big of a bitch his mommy is!

As I'm writing this, all I want right now is ice cream...

I don't take stress very well. I never have. I talked to my mom about this at some point when I was pregnant. She recalls when I was a teen that I would just break down and shut myself in my room and cry and cry. Can't really do that nowadays...I guess I grew out of it. I do remember the day we were talking about it when I was pregnant, I did cry, she said it wasn't the pregnancy, it was me just being me. I think she's right because right now I want to cry. Just one more day of work and I have the weekend!

Zoo & Bridal Shower

We had a jam packed weekend. We took Corey to Glen Oak Zoo in Peoria for their grand opening of the new Africa part. I was so excited about it. When I was younger, I lived less than a mile from the zoo and the park and always walked there. For visitations, my dad always took us there. I don't remember my mom ever taking us but I do remember getting a picture taken sitting on the big lion outside of the building, I wish I had that picture but I'm sure my dad took it and he has it. When I was about 9 or 10, I remember walking to to the zoo with my little friends. I thought I was so grown up! My mom found out and she freaked out. I would have too now that I think about it. My little niece is about that age and I would be freaked if she ran around the middle of Peoria...scary!

ANYWAYS...so we went Saturday and got there right in time to see the cutting of the ribbon. I made Chris record it with the new camcorder...not sure why...but we have it. We got lots of footage of Corey looking at the animals, but we aren't sure if he was actually seeing them. I also took lots of pictures to scrapbook of Chris holding him up to see the lions and tigers and monkeys! Its going to be fun to scrapbook. I bought paper for this 2 months ago so I'm excited to get going on that layout. Unfortunately, it will have to be after I get done with his hospital pictures...FROM WHEN HE WAS BORN!!!

I also went to my friend, Courtney's bridal shower after the zoo. It was so nice to see her and her family as well as the other girls we hang out with, Carrie & LeeAnn. We try to see each other as much as possible. I had lots of fun playing the bridal games like Name the Spice and dressing up Leeann in toilet paper to see who can make the best bridal gown. Of course, the bride's team won but I think we did an awesome job! I took Corey and everyone was just gushing over him...he loved the attention and didn't cry once.

Sunday, we were at Wal-mart contemplating on what we should do with the anniversary money his parents gave us. It took us an hour to figure out we wanted to start painting rooms in our house and then we had to figure out which color we wanted our spare bedroom to be. I chose this cute purple. I'm excited to see it when its finished. I'm going to put up sayings in every room in the house with vinyl lettering. Corey's saying is "Set your goals high and don't stop until you get there!" He has a sports theme in his room so it goes with the theme. My room will be blue and I want our saying right above our bed and it will say, "Always kiss me goodnight" I'm not sure what the spare room's saying will have. I'm getting ideas online but I'm excited to use my new die cutting machine, the Silhouette, to cut out the lettering!

All in all, it was a great weekend. I want to say we are the perfect little family but I know thats not true and everyone has problems...neither one of us, Chris or I is perfect. I just know that we can overcome any obstacles that comes around. We love each other and our families and that will never change.

3 years on the 3rd!

I'm SCRAPBOOKING!! I'm getting things done and trying to put books together...I have 3 or 4 projects going so hopefully I can get them done by this weekend. On Sunday, I returned my Cricut since I only used it once and bidded on eBay for a Silhouette machine. I won, it wasn't too bad, $130, I can't wait to use it. I told Chris its for my anniversary which is tomorrow. I won't get it until Friday though. Too bad...I'll be scrapbooking a lot that day and Sunday. I'll be pretty busy Saturday so no time for scrapbooking then.

On Sunday, my mom took Corey for the night. She's been begging me to have him spend the night again. I'm getting more comfortable with it so I let her. She came around 1pm Sunday afternoon taking full advantage of it and took him early. Chris and I didn't know what to do with ourselves so we stayed around town eating at Pizza Hut and mowing the lawn together. We went for a long walk and looked at houses around town, picking out what we liked about this house and that, getting ideas. Morton has the best looking houses. We went to see Night at the Museum which was really cute, but definitely a kids movie. We got home and watched a movie and I drank two whole glasses of wine. It was amazing. Chris and I don't hug and cuddle anymore or as much now that Corey's here but we did Sunday and I have to admit, I miss it. In all seriousness, Chris used to be my baby and I would be so affectionate towards him he was sick of it. Now that we aren't as affectionate, I think he misses it too! I'm going to try to show him more attention, my anniversary gift to him. Which reminds me...he is going on a trip with his cousin to the Grand Canyon this summer, not sure if its this month or next but also on Sunday, we walked around Best Buy trying to waste time before the movie and just wondering what to do without the baby in tow. We went there to just look around and for some reason went straight to the camcorders...I guess because we own everything else electronic-wise. 2 of everything. Computers, cameras, iPods, Wii for me, PS3 for him, tvs. We looked at all of them and priced them. Then we went around the store just thinking about if we really wanted and needed it. We played Madden '09 on the stores XBox 360 while thinking. We decided to get it. We realized that we needed to start recording Corey's life and when Chris goes to the Grand Canyon, I'm going to want to see how it was, so we bought it. We took it home and got started by recording our house outside and telling Corey how we got the house and showing him how it is before any big transistions are done, i.e. roof. So that was my anniversary present to him:)

As for Corey, he's just amazing. He knows his mommy and that makes me so proud. When my moms around though, he only wants her, which is fine with me, sometimes I need a break. Its hard to say that out loud because I want to be super mom but I know that I can't. I'm glad I have my mom around for times like those. She's the only one I really trust with him.

Well, tomorrow is offically 3 years together. I'm so proud of us! Yay!